Monday, November 19, 2007
Will i get a better picture if i just step outside and see??
I've been with andy for a year plus le...
not too long and not too short a period of time....
Our love is still there...
But sometimes, i'm just tired of certain things in e relationship...
makes me wanna give up everything tt we've built so far...
No ones know how tired i am in this thingy...
been torturing me like crazy...
i always try to show e strong side of me..
when im pouring with blood inside me....
I really feel like going to a new place,
where no ones knows who u really are...
And totally start anew...
Sounds great isn't it??
But it won't be so easily done...
in the REALITY...
He treats me like a precious jewel,
which everyone around me feels that i've finally found e right guy...
And of course i like him for who he is,
although i always pick on his bad points....
Although im growing fatter and fatter each day,
He still cuddles and hug me to sleep during his book out....
I always thought that everything will be fine when we r together for more than a year,
but it seems like there's no much better for getting better with his cousins...
And i seriously know tt to Andy,
both gf and family is e most important to him....
and so, im trying my best not to make him in a v difficult postition....
but none of them even tried to say hi to me...
how would our relationship be better???
we always tend to quarrel over this particular issue...
it's like stabbing into e same wound again n again....
*painful*
Sometimes, i just feel like granting wat ever they r wishing for,
that is to break off with andy...make his life easier...
But the problem is tt, We're both Very in Love with each other...
I won't even bear to leave him ...When i think of it, i just simply tearing whenever i thought of this issue lo....
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Peili, i really wanna know u well and seriously, being ur friend....
Coz i realized that the things that we blog bout each other is really hurting Andy alot alot....
And i'm tired of always arguing with andy and him always trying to make the situation smaller....
I know that u will read my blog,
so im hoping that the next time when we see each other,
we'll be able to share alot in conversations...
ok?
*THE END*
what we could have been, ♥ Peggy.12:58 AM.
